Conviction
God answers prayer. I have been praying that God would reveal to me the sins that I don't notice so that I can repent and be more of what He wants me to be. He answered my prayer yesterday morning and I must say, like many times, it was not what I expected.
I was very convicted in Sunday school (DR) after J. Fox discussed how we are all horrible sinners and yet many times we go around thinking that we are stacking up pretty well. I am guilty of this.In fact, just the other night I was telling someone how I thought that two other people were not being very Godly. Like I have any room to talk...."who are you to judge your neighbor?" ~James 4:12
I am the worst. It is easy for me to get caught up in ways of this world and seek acceptance by worldly standards. To wear the right clothes, hang out with the "right" group, wahtever else it may be. All of it entails jealousy, envy, materialism, and vanity. It is not the way I want to be! It's not that I want to be of the world, it is just that I live in it and I have insecuritites. Insecuritites = weakness. There is no reason for either when I am depending on the Lord.
I never again want to attempt to judge someone else's actions when I clearly need to spend time concentrating on my own. I want to be strong in the Lord and live only for Him. The truth is that it doesn't matter what I wear or who I hang out with or even what I look like. All of these will fade away and what is left? I don't want my weaknesses to drive me to treating others a certain way. Games. I don't like mind games and I do not wish to be part of them. I want to treat others the way I know God treats me; to help them, encourage them, and lift them up no matter what their actions toward me are.
Forgive me Lord for my shortcomings.
I need to spend more time with God. Lew and I are starting a fitness program if you will. We are going to get our spiritual lives in better shape. Starting today we are reading a spiritual book together and have agreed not to like or think about dating anyone until the new year. Its not like this is a big problem for us at the moment but our theory is that if we take out all the time we spend thinking about boys or how we look etc.. then we will have that much more time for God. And the truth is that anyone worth being with will like us because of what they see inside.
More than ever before I find myself attracted to people's hearts and not their clothes or image or other meaningless things. This is wonderful but poses problems too. Things are much more serious at this level and their is less room for error. Also, it can be very intense and most people are not comfortable with this, myself included.
I am excited to not think about these things for a while and trust God to have his way in my life.
I pray that God will help me to always remember his strength and draw from it in situations where I feel inadequate. Let me experience his steadiness and security. I want him to take my heart and my mind and mold them. "Mercy triumphs over judgment." ~James 2:13 Praise God!
I was very convicted in Sunday school (DR) after J. Fox discussed how we are all horrible sinners and yet many times we go around thinking that we are stacking up pretty well. I am guilty of this.In fact, just the other night I was telling someone how I thought that two other people were not being very Godly. Like I have any room to talk...."who are you to judge your neighbor?" ~James 4:12
I am the worst. It is easy for me to get caught up in ways of this world and seek acceptance by worldly standards. To wear the right clothes, hang out with the "right" group, wahtever else it may be. All of it entails jealousy, envy, materialism, and vanity. It is not the way I want to be! It's not that I want to be of the world, it is just that I live in it and I have insecuritites. Insecuritites = weakness. There is no reason for either when I am depending on the Lord.
I never again want to attempt to judge someone else's actions when I clearly need to spend time concentrating on my own. I want to be strong in the Lord and live only for Him. The truth is that it doesn't matter what I wear or who I hang out with or even what I look like. All of these will fade away and what is left? I don't want my weaknesses to drive me to treating others a certain way. Games. I don't like mind games and I do not wish to be part of them. I want to treat others the way I know God treats me; to help them, encourage them, and lift them up no matter what their actions toward me are.
Forgive me Lord for my shortcomings.
I need to spend more time with God. Lew and I are starting a fitness program if you will. We are going to get our spiritual lives in better shape. Starting today we are reading a spiritual book together and have agreed not to like or think about dating anyone until the new year. Its not like this is a big problem for us at the moment but our theory is that if we take out all the time we spend thinking about boys or how we look etc.. then we will have that much more time for God. And the truth is that anyone worth being with will like us because of what they see inside.
More than ever before I find myself attracted to people's hearts and not their clothes or image or other meaningless things. This is wonderful but poses problems too. Things are much more serious at this level and their is less room for error. Also, it can be very intense and most people are not comfortable with this, myself included.
I am excited to not think about these things for a while and trust God to have his way in my life.
I pray that God will help me to always remember his strength and draw from it in situations where I feel inadequate. Let me experience his steadiness and security. I want him to take my heart and my mind and mold them. "Mercy triumphs over judgment." ~James 2:13 Praise God!
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