Somethin

"Somethin's...... missin........, and I don't know what it is...... No I don't know what it is at all."
"Somethin's...... missin........, and I don't know what it is...... and I don't know how to fix it....."

~John Mayer
Spoken like a true Southerner ;o)

Sometimes I feel sad when I know I should be happy and sometimes I'm happy when I should be sad. These "shoulds" are things that almost anyone would agree on, like someone telling you that you look nice or on the other end, being insulted. Sometimes I just feel out of place, even at home.
Why is this?Also, I've noticed that music evokes more emotion from me than people. Songs help me release whatever it is that I dont want others to see - weaknesses. I love music increasingly more each day. Praise God that I have the ability to hear.

Surely, this is an inner struggle of some sort, a tip to some huge iceberg I haven't dealt with. Geez! Doesn't the water ever clear up?