less of me
I love mornings. Everything is still and quiet. It is like a different world. I'm able to focus on God early in the morning in a different way than after the day has worn on me. I wish that I remained all day the way I am in these early hours. As I sit in the stillness of my apartment, I am overwhelmed by the steadiness, peace, and strength of God. Everything is quiet, chaste, and yeilding in reverence to Him. I want to be more like the morning.
To stand strong and in reverence of God who loves me and wants to make my paths straight. I want to be consumed by the Holy Spirit so that there is none of me and only the light that comes from the Lord. I am aware of my weaknesses and while God forgives these in me I am concerned about the people that witness them. I am a poor testiment to the might of my Father. I fall short everyday of what I should be and I'm afraid that I will be a stumbling block. I take assurance though in the Lord who works all things for the good. He can take my shortcomings and work them for the good of His kingdom. Grace.
....."Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." ~1 Peter 3:13
Since I moved here in August I have had a tough time adjusting. While I knew that I would grow in my relationship with the Lord through this move and the trials that it would bring, I did not expect to lose myself. In the beginning I was unable to think as I used to. Self-doubt envaded my mind and heart. I never doubted the power or plan of God, but I doubted my ability to portray them. There is a lot of pressure ,when you are around non-believers, to represent God's children. The college I attend is very liberal and I was faced, and am still faced with degrading and constant opposition. This of course was magnified in my mind because of the insecurities that were mounting inside me. When this was happenng I welcomed it the best I could because I know that the Lord disciplines those he loves and that these things will only make me stronger. This is a difficult task though and it would be a lie to claim that I did not allow myself to fall into fear and self-pity. How weak am I. Thankfully, the Lord is restoring my strength with the help of a church body that is really on fire for the Lord. I am thankful for Green Tree Community Church, DR, and the children of God who make it such an amazing atmosphere to see the work of our Lord.
Father, help me portray the strength and steadiness that you provide. Keep me from fear and let others see you in me.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
To stand strong and in reverence of God who loves me and wants to make my paths straight. I want to be consumed by the Holy Spirit so that there is none of me and only the light that comes from the Lord. I am aware of my weaknesses and while God forgives these in me I am concerned about the people that witness them. I am a poor testiment to the might of my Father. I fall short everyday of what I should be and I'm afraid that I will be a stumbling block. I take assurance though in the Lord who works all things for the good. He can take my shortcomings and work them for the good of His kingdom. Grace.
....."Do not fear what they fear; do not be frightened." ~1 Peter 3:13
Since I moved here in August I have had a tough time adjusting. While I knew that I would grow in my relationship with the Lord through this move and the trials that it would bring, I did not expect to lose myself. In the beginning I was unable to think as I used to. Self-doubt envaded my mind and heart. I never doubted the power or plan of God, but I doubted my ability to portray them. There is a lot of pressure ,when you are around non-believers, to represent God's children. The college I attend is very liberal and I was faced, and am still faced with degrading and constant opposition. This of course was magnified in my mind because of the insecurities that were mounting inside me. When this was happenng I welcomed it the best I could because I know that the Lord disciplines those he loves and that these things will only make me stronger. This is a difficult task though and it would be a lie to claim that I did not allow myself to fall into fear and self-pity. How weak am I. Thankfully, the Lord is restoring my strength with the help of a church body that is really on fire for the Lord. I am thankful for Green Tree Community Church, DR, and the children of God who make it such an amazing atmosphere to see the work of our Lord.
Father, help me portray the strength and steadiness that you provide. Keep me from fear and let others see you in me.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6
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